Last post was in 2020 and not even a week after I quit CHAMPIX was I back to smoking cigarettes.
It is now 2023 and since then, I have tried multiple times to quit with the recent attempt at hypnotherapy which cost $700 that did not work on me.
I have to confront myself and recognise that I am a proper addict and I do not want this thing to rob me of anymore of my health.
I have struggled with breathing issues and I have a feeling that I may have lung scarring as I did a chest X-ray which came up with puzzling results. I have a follow up test in August and I am just so sick of myself at the moment.
This year has gone to absolute sh!t for me and I am ready to throw in the towel but before I do, I want to try good old cold Turkey which I have never lasted more than 12 hours.
My self hatred levels are extremely high and self respect levels rock bottom.
My new quit date is this coming Saturday 22/04/2023. This is my pledge to myself that I will never touch another cigarette. I want my self respect and self love.
If this doesn’t work, I’m just going to give up and call it a day.
WISH ME LUCK!!