Hello everyone,
I was addicted to this demon ‘nicotine’ since last 20 years. Tried quitting on multiple occasions and failed miserably. If its not cigarette then its dipping tobacco (which is even worst) or vape lately. Either way i was addicted with any nicotine substance. Had a heaps of fights with spouse and every time we fought i gave her false hope and promise that it would be the last one. Which it was never until last week when she found a pack and I lied and swear on my 1.5 years son, my wife was so disappointed that she did not even speak to me but wrote me only two sentences in a chit “shame on you, you swore on your son”. It made me realize how down have I gone as a human to hide my bad habit that I swore on my son.
I still kept that chit with me and I look at it every time (when I’m craving) to remind me what’s at stake and what I did and what I need to do.
Its hard and constant battle with mind but i think hanging on to some sort of totem like I do helps to overcome.