So today I’m on day 6 of my new quit. I had quit for 8 years. Talked myself into thinking that I was one of those people who can be a social smoker. What a dummy I am. About a year ago went on vacation with a couple that are both smokers.
. We were drinking and having fun and I thought I’ll smoke this week and I’ll stop when I get home. And I did. But it was now in the back of my mind. So whenever I was out drinking I would seek out smokers and ask for a smoke. Still I thought I had it under control. We went on vacation again 8 months later and I did the same thing smoked all week. My wife kept telling me that I was going down a slippery road. But I insisted that I had it under control. I started craving it more and more. Well in a years time I started buying a pack her and there. Would smoke 5-6 and throw the pack out. I hatted myself. Then thanksgiving night I drank and when everyone left I started going threw the garbage can to find a cig. Then I knew I lost control.